What exactly are promises anyway? Do we promise knowing full well we won't keep it? Maybe I shouldn't of promised. But sometimes I just want to appease the person in hopes they will shut the hell up.
I've had promises broken on me as well. I remember when I was little my mom promising to buy me something the next time we went to the store, it never happened. Maybe that is why today promises don't mean much to me. I would like it to mean something. I would like to mean it when I make a promise. I think I do mean it when I make the promise, the deep passionate purpose behind the promise fades after the moment though.
I kind of think telling someone you love them is like a promise. I don't just "like" you but I love you so I promise to be here for you unconditionally.....or something like that.
Love is a funny thing too. I have this thing where I have to have a guy tell me he loves me first. This doesn't usually take long, men will say it to get whatever it is they want, usually sex. God men are stupid. Like we women can't see through what it is that they are doing. The game they play is so simplistic and easy to identify. Women have a much darker side than men.....but more about that later.
Funny. As a guy, I won't say the 'L' word unless they've said it first. Then again, I'm a sociopath, and a somewhat asexual one at that.
ReplyDeleteI can relate to you on promises. I remember reading about the Bushido Code while a youth, and being blown away by the Duty entailed with a Samurai's word. After reading that, I vowed that I would never make a promise that I wasn't sure I could keep.
I've messed up a few times, but I've done a pretty good job all these years later. I still won't make promises that I know I won't keep, and I'll tell that to people's faces. They find it jarring, but probably not as jarring as being betrayed down the line.